Sunday, February 22, 2009
Hey followers, bloggers, and random people who might eventually run across my rants!
I apologize i have not posted much. There are so many issues I would like to talk about, but i have felt i can not find my footing in writing; due to writers block, lack of sleep, stress, and the boredom. the words are not coming out as fluently as they used too and it is most likely due to the hectic lifestyle of a full-time employee and full time student. Between the Obama Stimulus plan, baseball's fading light, my personal revelations, my decreasing intelligence, the never-ending taste for knowledge and bone jarring thumps of agonizing beauty, the answer to the question that burns in everyones life, and the simple feeling of happiness... philosophically, psychologically, sexually, and physically. They are all issues I would love to give my feelings on. Just so that as i grow older, and hopefully wiser, i can reflect to the mentality i once had so young in years in the grand sense of life.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Award Crap
Thank You Kelly for another( as Adam Says) "Self-Attention Blog"
Let's start with the rules:
The honorees are to: A) first list 10 honest things about yourself - and make it interesting, even if you have to dig deep! B) pass the award on to 7 bloggers that you feel embody the spirit of the Honest Scrap.
1) Social Acceptance: I am a loner. I enjoy being by myself and doing my own thing, I hate crowds. Unless I'm drunk and in another city then its all good. I think it is because I bore of people easily. I hate drama, I always want to say" honestly just stfu, I don't want to hear your mindless dribble after 5 more minutes of hearing your self-emotional decimation." I personally would rather read a book, write some poems, go to the gym, or play video games. I also love going to the gym when I am by myself so that as I'm running/jogging/walking/wheezing-for-breathes I can belch out the lyrics to the current song I would be listening to. Head Automatic is amazing to scream to as your working out.
2) Renaissance man: I miss being creative. I miss the days of drawing, painting, and writing endless sonnets and books. Showing my artistic skill. Not for others, but for my own hearts contention. Expressing my vivid interpretations and depictions floating around in the cerebral fluidity of my mind. As I grow older and more responsible for my financial well-being I notice the parallel to my creative side; financial success and the decline of creativity.
3) Ambitions: My ambitions are not unpractical. I just want to be a good human being. Write a book, memoir, or a collection of stories and/or poems. Be well off financially in life, so that I will be allowed to take a vacation to any place my mind is wandering. Have enough money so that when I have kids, if anything should ever happen, I would be well off to handle the situations and problems that arise with being a parent.
4) Procrastination: I am never good and starting something on time. I am a procrastinator. I know what I must do, but I would rather wait ‘til the last moment possible. I have noticed this even more, now that I have started school again. The real funny thing though, is that I do 100 times better when I am under the knife. More alert, more creative, more dynamic, and more humbled with the added pressures of the world on my shoulders and the impending time constraints.
5) Travel: The world is a canvas, and I need to see the entirety of the final painting before coming to a conclusion on the Earths beauty. If I had enough money I know I would not be planted in one place. I would sail the sevens seas, run through the ever infinite view of land, and soar above the reaches of oxygen. I yearn for the uninhabitable grain of desert sand, the Mesa’s of salt bedrock, the tropical blissfulness of Caribbean destinations, the festive green eternity that lies in a jungle or forest, the frigid winds of high elevation monstrosities, and the mere thought of being surrounded by a vast valley while the holes of nights sky submerge the skin in emotional warmth. I really crave visions of a place I once called home.
6) Relationships: I would love the company of my counter part. Problem is I do not have one and there are a few reasons for it. I am not very social. Like #1 answer on this “Award”, people just bother me. So most of the time I would rather have a small group of friends that I see, then knowing the whole world and only see them once in a lifetime. I have a hard time opening up. Some things in my life need to stay private. Doors I do not want to open. Another part is I over think things. Especially the fact if I keep working out and lose more and more weight will people like me for who I really am or just the way I look? But then I realize that our outward appearance is a projection upon our inside and how we feel. Our outside is our welcoming to others, who we present our lifestyle and ourselves. Maybe that is why the way you look veers you into alternative destinations in the trials and tribulations of life. The real funny thing is if I think like this then I am really sorry for women.
7) Taurus : I am a Taurus. Not to the T but a Taurus nonetheless. I do exhibit many Taurus-ian tendencies such as: Stubborn, Artistic, Loyal, Overindulgent, Steadfast, Romantic, Affectionate, and Traditional. There are some factors that make me a tad different though. I am a laid back person but I wouldn’t say to the full extent. Also Patient is not a strong suit for myself. And last would be “slow to anger.” I think I’m more Puerto Rican when it comes to my anger cause I’ll fucking cut you, homes.
8) Past: My past is a weird one. I have had different experiences that have dictated who I am. I rarely will openly talk about the past because I hate the emotions that follow with it. Things that are in the past are in the past and they have already happened. Why indulge with past mistakes and situations when the future is just around the corner.
9) Present: I am very content with where I am right now. I am not sad and I am not happy. I feel more robotic then human most of the time. I do not feel like I am contributing much to my society/generation at the moment. Just more or less following a path for my future ambitions, relationships, experiences, and social acceptances while trying to remember the past and creativity I once had; and stopping the procrastination of my Taurus-ian self indulgences and mental thought explosions of analyzing everything.
10) Godly: I have always had self-aggrandizing feelings of Godliness. Maybe it is why I see myself the way I do. Maybe it is why I yearn to have power. I honestly wish the feelings would stop but right now I am glad for them. They are helping me survive and keep my sanity, in a weird sense. I have never been religious and maybe that is why I have these feelings since I cannot place my beliefs in something else I place them within myself.
My 7 people:
Bert
Ernie
Big Bird
Elmo
Snuffiluficus
Oscar
And Rowlf the Dog (Rowlf was always cool cause he seemed like an old jazz/blues player.
Let's start with the rules:
The honorees are to: A) first list 10 honest things about yourself - and make it interesting, even if you have to dig deep! B) pass the award on to 7 bloggers that you feel embody the spirit of the Honest Scrap.
1) Social Acceptance: I am a loner. I enjoy being by myself and doing my own thing, I hate crowds. Unless I'm drunk and in another city then its all good. I think it is because I bore of people easily. I hate drama, I always want to say" honestly just stfu, I don't want to hear your mindless dribble after 5 more minutes of hearing your self-emotional decimation." I personally would rather read a book, write some poems, go to the gym, or play video games. I also love going to the gym when I am by myself so that as I'm running/jogging/walking/wheezing-for-breathes I can belch out the lyrics to the current song I would be listening to. Head Automatic is amazing to scream to as your working out.
2) Renaissance man: I miss being creative. I miss the days of drawing, painting, and writing endless sonnets and books. Showing my artistic skill. Not for others, but for my own hearts contention. Expressing my vivid interpretations and depictions floating around in the cerebral fluidity of my mind. As I grow older and more responsible for my financial well-being I notice the parallel to my creative side; financial success and the decline of creativity.
3) Ambitions: My ambitions are not unpractical. I just want to be a good human being. Write a book, memoir, or a collection of stories and/or poems. Be well off financially in life, so that I will be allowed to take a vacation to any place my mind is wandering. Have enough money so that when I have kids, if anything should ever happen, I would be well off to handle the situations and problems that arise with being a parent.
4) Procrastination: I am never good and starting something on time. I am a procrastinator. I know what I must do, but I would rather wait ‘til the last moment possible. I have noticed this even more, now that I have started school again. The real funny thing though, is that I do 100 times better when I am under the knife. More alert, more creative, more dynamic, and more humbled with the added pressures of the world on my shoulders and the impending time constraints.
5) Travel: The world is a canvas, and I need to see the entirety of the final painting before coming to a conclusion on the Earths beauty. If I had enough money I know I would not be planted in one place. I would sail the sevens seas, run through the ever infinite view of land, and soar above the reaches of oxygen. I yearn for the uninhabitable grain of desert sand, the Mesa’s of salt bedrock, the tropical blissfulness of Caribbean destinations, the festive green eternity that lies in a jungle or forest, the frigid winds of high elevation monstrosities, and the mere thought of being surrounded by a vast valley while the holes of nights sky submerge the skin in emotional warmth. I really crave visions of a place I once called home.
6) Relationships: I would love the company of my counter part. Problem is I do not have one and there are a few reasons for it. I am not very social. Like #1 answer on this “Award”, people just bother me. So most of the time I would rather have a small group of friends that I see, then knowing the whole world and only see them once in a lifetime. I have a hard time opening up. Some things in my life need to stay private. Doors I do not want to open. Another part is I over think things. Especially the fact if I keep working out and lose more and more weight will people like me for who I really am or just the way I look? But then I realize that our outward appearance is a projection upon our inside and how we feel. Our outside is our welcoming to others, who we present our lifestyle and ourselves. Maybe that is why the way you look veers you into alternative destinations in the trials and tribulations of life. The real funny thing is if I think like this then I am really sorry for women.
7) Taurus : I am a Taurus. Not to the T but a Taurus nonetheless. I do exhibit many Taurus-ian tendencies such as: Stubborn, Artistic, Loyal, Overindulgent, Steadfast, Romantic, Affectionate, and Traditional. There are some factors that make me a tad different though. I am a laid back person but I wouldn’t say to the full extent. Also Patient is not a strong suit for myself. And last would be “slow to anger.” I think I’m more Puerto Rican when it comes to my anger cause I’ll fucking cut you, homes.
8) Past: My past is a weird one. I have had different experiences that have dictated who I am. I rarely will openly talk about the past because I hate the emotions that follow with it. Things that are in the past are in the past and they have already happened. Why indulge with past mistakes and situations when the future is just around the corner.
9) Present: I am very content with where I am right now. I am not sad and I am not happy. I feel more robotic then human most of the time. I do not feel like I am contributing much to my society/generation at the moment. Just more or less following a path for my future ambitions, relationships, experiences, and social acceptances while trying to remember the past and creativity I once had; and stopping the procrastination of my Taurus-ian self indulgences and mental thought explosions of analyzing everything.
10) Godly: I have always had self-aggrandizing feelings of Godliness. Maybe it is why I see myself the way I do. Maybe it is why I yearn to have power. I honestly wish the feelings would stop but right now I am glad for them. They are helping me survive and keep my sanity, in a weird sense. I have never been religious and maybe that is why I have these feelings since I cannot place my beliefs in something else I place them within myself.
My 7 people:
Bert
Ernie
Big Bird
Elmo
Snuffiluficus
Oscar
And Rowlf the Dog (Rowlf was always cool cause he seemed like an old jazz/blues player.
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